Reagan is around 14 months old. She is a princess-diva. Seriously, this girl has some major 'tude! But it only makes sense knowing her mama and her "auntie".
When Jessica called and told me she was pregnant I got so excited that my knees gave out, I fell to the floor and started crying. (Yes, I am a bit dramatic sometimes). I WAS SO EXCITED. I could not wait. I knew from that moment that Jess was having a girl. I don't know why I knew this, but it just seemed right. When Jessica called to confirm my suspicion I was even more excited. My mom and I instantly started shopping for baby clothes. I was nervous though...I did not really understand or like babies and they did not really understand or like me either. Would this little girl like me? Would I like her? It was very stressful and perplexing to me.
I remember the day she was born. I got a text message with a picture at work and of course, started crying. I was working at a gym then so literally every single person I checked in I showed the picture of Reagan to! I was so happy! I just could not wait to talk to Jess & Scott and hear all about this beautiful baby. Again, I have never personally been excited about a baby being born until now. I don't think I was really old enough before this point to "get it".
Drew and I got to meet her Halloween weekend last year when she was just a few weeks old. She was tiny. Tiny, tiny, tiny. She was so much smaller than I was even when I was born! She had this thick black hair and these perfect little fingers. She was beautiful. I thought she was so fragile though. It took me 3 days before I would even hold her. I was so nervous. She was also a very unhappy baby at this point because she had horrible reflux that made her very uncomfortable. It made everybody very uncomfortable actually with all of the screaming. It was wonderful birth control for Drew and me!
Since that time Reagan and I have bonded. I have been able to spend lots of time with her over the past year. I saw them over Christmas last year. I made a trip to SC to see them before our wedding. I saw them during the week of the wedding. A few weeks after the wedding. Etc. It is so crazy to me how much she changes even just from one week to the next! She grows and develops and it is really cool!
Reagan is walking now. She is actually running around like a little monkey! She is funny and talks a little bit and laughs a lot! She loves cell phones, shoes, and purses (a girl after my own heart)! She also loves a good bath! It is so adorable.
It is so interesting to me how I can love this little girl so much, yet not really know her yet. Does that make sense? I mean, we have never had a heart-to-heart. I don't know what she wants to do with her life, I don't know what she believes, but I do know that she is glorious and has God's thumbprint all over her. I miss her. I love seeing her. I love getting pictures of her. A few weeks ago Jess sent me a "drawing" Reagan did for me. It was great! I put it on my refrigerator!
Reagan,
I know you can't read this yet, but someday when you can, I hope you know that you have been loved since before you were born. You are beautiful. You are hysterical. You are smart! I love playing with you and getting to spend time with you and your mommy and daddy. I think you are the coolest little girl ever. I can't wait to see you again. Come see me in Carbondale! I will spoil you! (Not like you are not already spoiled!). I pray that you grow up loving the Lord and pursue after Him all the days of your precious life. I am so blessed by you sweet little girl! I love you very much!
"Auntie" MB
This is a picture of us at my Bridesmaid's Brunch. She was an honorary Bridesmaid of course! ;)
